It’s hard at times to know what I am doing right and what I am doing wrong. There are some things easy enough for me to understand. I am not very good at marketing myself, I am not good at being consistent, I do not have a high enough turnaround. Other things, however, seem so out of my control, and I am not sure where I am faltering. Why is no one reading my stuff? Why do I struggle to pull people in? Am I doing something wrong with my blog? Is there something wrong with me.
It is very difficult to put yourself out there and not see any return at all.
I realize of course everything is a slow build and a slow climb. I know that I just keep having to work at it. It’s not that I intend to give up. I also know that there are certain areas I can improve. I know those areas don’t account for everything, however, and I am not sure where the other roadblocks are coming from. I am not sure how to change something when I don’t even know what that something is.
How do I fix something when I don’t know what’s broken?
It’s hard not to think in these moments that I am what’s wrong. That I am simply not meant for the things I want in my life. I know it’s a defeatist attitude and I don’t want to submit to it, but it is challenging.
Just gotta keep up with the fight I guess. Hopefully, if there is a missing piece I will find it eventually. Until then I guess just keep trying to improve the things I know are wrong.
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