Category: Mental Health

Numb

This is going to be a struggle for me to get out… I think for a lot of people there is an assumption that depression is sadness. Of course, sadness is part of depression, I want no one to think that I am denying that. However, my low points are not always sad points. There…

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Plants and Drama

So not too long ago I was babysitting my mother’s dogs, and one of them went on a bit of a warpath. He has a thing about plants, and in a just a short amount of time he managed to almost completely destroy mine. He dug a lot out, broke pots, spilled soil everywhere (wasting…

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Drowning Again

I’ve written, tweeted, etc before about feeling like I am drowning and I am back there. This whole move has massively damaged my motivation, schedule, and routine. I am still incredibly grateful. We are in a nicer place (overall), in a nicer neighborhood, spending less money, and just a down right better situation. However when…

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Support

I am not sure if I will share this after writing it out as it delves into some fairly private matters. Many years ago after my suicide attempt, I was diagnosed manic-depressive with extreme depressive tendencies (basically I have depression on top of bi-polar in the easiest to understand sense). Years later my anxiety was…

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Discouraged

I wrote a short blog post about how discouraged I’ve been lately. It was self indulgent and mostly about how I felt I was barely holding my grip from slipping into another dark spell. It was true, but I realized it was also unhelpful. I am discouraged. I am not writing as much or as…

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Dark Place

I’ve been going to dark places more often lately. Some of it is my fault, I dwell, allow my depression and anxiety to overwhelm me. Some is just the nature of the beast. I’ve felt lost, like I am losing most of the things I have a connection to. Struggling with my writing despite my…

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