Struggling

My Twitch career has been tumultuous at best. It has been plagued by my mental health issues, my own laziness, switching my name, my inability to keep a schedule, and a million other things. To be honest, right now it’s currently plagued by my feeling I should just give up. It has been years since […]

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Letting Go of Jealousy

Some time ago (like nearly a year) I wrote a short piece on one of my worst habits, comparing myself to others. Recently this has been on my mind, and I would like to expand on it a bit. I have the worst habit of comparing myself to others, and never in a good way. […]

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Unfocused, Unmotivated, No Desire

It’s been a bit since I have done a personal blog. I’ve been struggling considerably when it comes to staying focused on my goals. It’s not an issue of being stuck in a cloud of depression, no this is something different, and somehow worse. I am feeling a complete lack of drive, motivation, desire, focus, […]

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Couples with Mental Health Issues

I am not a mental health professional, and in this case, I am also not a relationship expert. I write according to my own experience and share it because I feel it can be helpful. It’s helpful for me to get it off my chest, and might help others to know that someone else out […]

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The Problem with Absolutes and Advice

As always please note that I am not a mental health professional, and so you should know this before reading my mental health blogs. In my channel, I try to have a pretty open policy about discussions with mental health. As someone who suffers from various problems, and someone who has struggled a great deal […]

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Numb

This is going to be a struggle for me to get out… I think for a lot of people there is an assumption that depression is sadness. Of course, sadness is part of depression, I want no one to think that I am denying that. However, my low points are not always sad points. There […]

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Drowning Again

I’ve written, tweeted, etc before about feeling like I am drowning and I am back there. This whole move has massively damaged my motivation, schedule, and routine. I am still incredibly grateful. We are in a nicer place (overall), in a nicer neighborhood, spending less money, and just a down right better situation. However when […]

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Support

I am not sure if I will share this after writing it out as it delves into some fairly private matters. Many years ago after my suicide attempt, I was diagnosed manic-depressive with extreme depressive tendencies (basically I have depression on top of bi-polar in the easiest to understand sense). Years later my anxiety was […]

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Discouraged

I wrote a short blog post about how discouraged I’ve been lately. It was self indulgent and mostly about how I felt I was barely holding my grip from slipping into another dark spell. It was true, but I realized it was also unhelpful. I am discouraged. I am not writing as much or as […]

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Little Steps that I Deserve to Celebrate

I often times find myself so focused on what I haven’t done, while completely ignoring the improvements I am making. Progress takes time, I am not able to change my life as easy as flipping a switch. I would like to take this time to highlight things I simply don’t pat myself on the back […]

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